Wednesday, June 29, 2016

"Tradeoff"




Small flight of fancy- a poem sketch inspired by the goddess in the above photo...

Ladies, don't give up your power...
Don't hand it over for fleeting joys and temporary hours
You were born with the gift, don't lay it in sacrifice on the alter
In the name of love,
Don't offer to trade what is beyond price for a false happy-ever-after,
don't ensnare it's song like a caged dove,
Stop feeding into the porcelain promises of those who would capture your heart for selfish reasons...
Transparent lovers that steal your prize, then transit and depart in the changing seasons
Remain strong and steadfast, guard diligently your dreams and always to that loving heart stay true,
Remember, the power always and forever resides within YOU!



by: Jamie Patterson 6/16/16

Wednesday, June 8, 2016

A Walk in the (City) Park


Anytime I get homesick for the old time days and feel the need to reconnect with my city, I know its time to hop in the car and head out to City Park.  Anticipating the God-awful humidity that awaits us this time of year, we are armed with cutie oranges, wet wipes, hats and containers of cold water.  Duran Duran is playing on the radio and we snake along Metairie Road, where a train has a line of cars stopped and waiting impatiently to proceed onward.  The sun beats down, painting the dashboard and the back of Nate's curly head, and my hand on the steering wheel. Finally we are moving again, watching the scenery flashing by.  We head past the cemetery on the left, before the arrival of the interstate.  I find myself imagining a conversation that never happened with my Nana, before she passed, as the headstones gently blurred on the edges of my peripheral.  "Are you scared (of the afterlife)?" she asks me.  I look at her and nod with trepidation, saying "Oh yeah."  She looks at me and a smile lights her face, part smirk and part mischief, sexy on a young woman and endearing on an old one.  She tells me, "I don't blame you, I was too.  But don't be. You'll see."  Then a well-remembered hug from this short and beautiful lady who I miss and remember every day.  Conversations like this pop up in my head all the time.  Its exactly the way Jim Morrison was quoted as saying, "Its like I was sitting back and taking notes to an amazing rock concert in my head."  When I write my poetry, or snippets of thought, or take note of imaginary conversations, its like tuning in to a radio frequency that nobody else is aware of or can hear. Its a privilege. The next imaginary journey, after parting ways with my Nana, was to my Paw Paw.  I remember his curly silver-threaded hair, his pleasure at seeing us all sitting at the table having coffeetime (hot tea for me and coffee for the adults), the way he would walk around the table and lay a hand on each of our heads, bestowing kisses and chuckling at the way Nana would bat his hand away and Mom would fuss at him saying, "Daddy, my hair! You're messing it up." Then giving in and leaning up for a hug from him.  Family at the table made Paw Paw happy. He could be a tough old man, bossy and domineering (very much as his namesake Dominick), but the love was always and forever there.
 
Almost to City Park, we stop at the intersection where the infamous Beauregard statue stands guard, high on his horse, proud and maligned.  Then the turn into the long drive where NOMA resides.  Parking is at a premium on this free admission Wednesday, so we drive in circles before finding a spot.  This mom is smart enough to know that her toddler is a scamp who needs constant supervision, so the stroller comes with us on our museum adventure.  It also doubles as storage for those cold drinks and fruit snacks we've brought along. Nate seems mellowed out and cool with being seated and pushed along for the ride, so off we go.  One of the featured exhibits this time around was...of all people....Bob Dylan.  Its amazing when people can "cross over" into different fields of art. His music and lyrics always appealed, and it was fun to go in and see the paintings he created, all of them located here in Nola. 
 
Nate and I strolled around in the cool, calming atmosphere of the museum, taking in all the different styles and techniques of art, and reading the plaques next to each one.  The one thing I always take from our NOMA experiences is the way that people have always felt a need to express an emotion and to be creative.  Its the one constant in a world that has been, and always will be, changing. Looking at the brushstrokes and the stories behind the works depicting everyday life, long ago and today, connects everyone.  We are all filled to the brim with ideas, knowledge, emotions and needs.  When we unleash them and create something out of the chaos of feelings and ideas, it is art and it lasts forever. It inspires and it attaches us as a people, not just separate beings wandering lost and alone in this crazy world.
 
The museum is good about allowing its patrons to take pictures, at least most of the time.  To mark the adventures Nate and I have, I borrow his little gray and blue striped fedora and work it into whatever photos we take.  This time, I placed it on the bust of one of the great thinkers...I can't recall the name because foot traffic was extremely busy and I was attempting to be quick.  On went the hat on the scowling and serious face, and I parked Nate's stroller next to it and snapped a rapid couple of shots of them together.  I also try to work Mr. Monkey, Nate's best friend ever, into the art.  This is a shot of what I came up with:
 
 

 
Once Nate is older, I'm going to make copies of all the photos of Mr. Monkey and the hat, and make a photo album for my little man.  He'll enjoy looking back on all the adventures we had.  And I'll make a copy for myself because I'm sentimental and will enjoy the trip down memory lane.
 
Nate tolerates Mommy's playful stunts, and we roam around a bit more before stopping to say hello to Miss Sandra, one of the ladies who volunteers at NOMA, and then leave.  Our next stop is the Sculpture Garden.  The moment we leave the building and head outside, wowza! the humidity hits.  Its definitely unofficially summer in Nola, despite the fact that summer solstice is still a couple of weeks away.  We were lucky to escape the humidity noose in May, when temps were down and things were milder than normal.  But now its back.  I try to concentrate on enjoying the fact its a sunny day with not a cloud in the sky.  When we get to the garden, I unleash Nate from his stroller, and he rapidly vacates the area, running ahead and giggling.  I attempt to rein him in but after a few moments of real fear as he raced towards the lagoon, I had to pop him back into his captivity in order to gain some semblance of control.  We wandered past the giant safety pin; past the group of sculpture men "el nudo" watching from the central lawn; past towering oaks laden with moss as threadbare as old lace; and along a path that was speckled with shadows and streams of bright sunlight.  Our stopping point was the set of benches facing the water, with the statues of men and women sitting down and gazing out at the lake.  By this time, we are both soaked to the skin.  Nate's hat is damp, and mine is completely gone- I lost it between the museum and the garden.  So now without the beribboned straw hat, my hair is wet and clinging to the back of my neck.  I've lost all fashion in our journey, and it is still early in the day.  Nate's collar is damp, his curls are plastered to his skull and the color is high on his little cheeks.  Thankfully shade is awaiting us, and I let him out again to hang out and visit with the statue guys.  It isn't long before my little elf is running away once again, and hiding into the bushes.  Panicked thoughts of snakes and spiders run rampant in my feverish brain and I dive in to pull him out and...once again... back into the stroller.  We go back to the statues.  After snapping a few pictures, it is time to go.  Nate has dumped the contents of his sippy cup all over the stroller and himself and decides to splash it with tired giddiness.  Thankfully its only water so it will hopefully help cool him.  I'm finishing my water too, and seeing people circle nearby, clearly waiting for their turn to take pictures with the ever-popular bench statues.  We head back to the car to pack it up and head out.  While in the process, we hear a familiar toot- the kids' train is on the way! I ask Nate if he wants to wait and watch for the train and he agrees readily.  After a few moments, the train is in sight.  I grab my cell because it has a good zoom feature, and zero in on the colorful blue and red and yellow train snaking down the track.  I get a few shots, then stop to wave at the kids and their folks on the trolley.  Many of them are smiling and waving back.  I keep waving till they are out of sight, then get back to packing the car and getting Nate out of his stroller.  I give him one more brief shot at freedom and tell him firmly to stand by the car.  He's out of fuel for the usual feistiness, but still has enough in him to defy the Mommy ordinance and stubbornly sit down on the ground, refusing to get up so we can get him in his car seat.  Time to be Mean Mommy and make it happen.  Once we are all finished, its time to make the brief drive back home, sweaty and tired but the better for our adventures.  Back on the fast track to reality after a jaunt with the past. 
 

 

Friday, April 22, 2016

Goodbye Prince

"Sometimes it Snows in April"- Prince
 
 
 
Tracy died soon after a long fought civil war,
Just after I'd wiped away his last tear
I guess he's better off than he was before,
A whole lot better off than the fools he left here
I used to cry for Tracy because he was my only friend
Those kind of cars don't pass you every day
I used to cry for Tracy because I wanted to see him again,
But sometimes sometimes life ain't always the way
Sometimes it snows in April
Sometimes I feel so bad, so bad
Sometimes I wish life was never ending,
And all good things, they say, never last
Springtime was always my favorite time of year,
A time for lovers holding hands in the rain
Now springtime only reminds me of Tracy's tears
Always cry for love, never cry for pain
He used to say so strong unafraid to die
Unafraid of the death that left me hypnotized
No, staring at his picture I realized
No one could cry the way my Tracy cried
Sometimes it snows in April
Sometimes I feel so bad
Sometimes, sometimes I wish that life was never ending,
And all good things, they say, never last
I often dream of heaven and I know that Tracy's there
I know that he has found another friend
Maybe he's found the answer to all the April snow
Maybe one day I'll see my Tracy again
Sometimes it snows in April
Sometimes I feel so bad, so bad
Sometimes I wish that life was never ending,
But all good things, they say, never last
All good things that say, never last
And love, it isn't love until it's past


Read more: Prince - Sometimes It Snows In April Lyrics | MetroLyrics

Earth Day 2016




My 2016 List of Ways to Celebrate Earth Day:

(1) Go plant shopping with Nate- pick out seedlings and plant them together.
(2) Make an Earth Day craft.
(3) Leave bread out for the birds.
(4) Spend an evening in the backyard and breathe in the fresh air, take off shoes & socks and rest under the shade of a tree.
(5) Buy fresh local produce at the farmer's market Saturday morning.  Take a moment to appreciate the fact that we live in a place that has abundant, fresh and healthy food to enjoy.
(6) Go to the park and look for our friends the swans.
(7) Enjoy the sunset.

Seeking Happiness



As I look back on the recent posts of this blog, I quickly realize that my gratitude journal is becoming dimmed by a lot of sad events that have happened recently. There have been so many deaths in the music world this year, in rapid-fire succession, it has become a challenge to recover from one tragedy before we find the next staring in our faces. I posted each one on my page because I wanted to "pay my respects" online and remember the lost. Unfortunately, I am in danger of losing the original plan to share stories of joy and gratitude on here, so I am trying to refocus and get back to the good during these dark days.
 
Some say happiness is a choice. I think its definitely a lifestyle and a mindset, both which require work. Its hard to always "choose" to wear a smile and to be optimistic in the face of disappointment, sadness and the rest- but I am finding out that if I keep track of a few things a day to be grateful for- even the basics, I become aware of exactly how much good exists in my life and my world. And when you start looking for the good, you "exercise" the gratitude muscle and it becomes second nature.  Maybe optimism can be an acquired taste. Another important thing in the "pursuit of happiness" is to avoid like the plague the impulse to compare.  "Comparison is the thief of joy"- Shakespeare summed it up beautifully and perfectly.  Everyone has a measuring stick when it comes to the world around us, and its destined to make us miserable because as long as someone else has more (and someone always will!), our life is going to come up short.  As long as we are looking at the person next to us that seems to lead a charmed life, we are missing our perspective on our own identities and burying what makes us unique in a doomed quest for perfection, by someone else's standards. Besides, if the person next to us has an overwhelming amount of blessings in their life, what does it matter to them if they are fixated on all the bad? They might as well have nothing because for some, its never "enough". When you live with a grateful heart, you never have that issue to deal with.
 
I'm going to sign off this post with a few things I am grateful for today.  Hoping to return to a positive state of mind, along with my blog. 
 
Gratitude List 4/22/16:
 
(1) I am grateful that the sun is shining on this Earth Day.
(2) I am happy that the week is over and we survived the work and drama!
(3) The irises are in full bloom, and seeing them thriving really lifts my spirits.
(4) I am grateful for our kind next door neighbors that I wish I could adopt as family.
(5) I'm grateful my son is still young enough to give me giant bear hugs and kisses in public, without shame.
 
Wishing everyone a joyful weekend- let's make it shine!
 
007



Wednesday, April 13, 2016

A Saint's Goodbye


"A Saint's Goodbye"- by Jamie Patterson

You are New Orleans
You are not just a number on a black and gold jersey
You are the smell of magnolias blooming in spring
And the sound of a child shrieking with joy
You are the hot breeze trailing the streetcar barreling down Canal
And the pigeons warbling to one another as they hunt for bread crumbs from forgotten beignets

You are not just a skin color or race, nor a religion or faith
Because in truth we are all golden in God's eyes, we are all connected here and beyond
You are the footsteps checking on a child caught in the web of a nightmare
You are the muscular arms holding your wife with tenderness
You are the hand holding your child's hand with care, teaching that a strong man is also gentle
You are the fine mist spraying from a fountain freckled with pennies and filled with wishes

You are New Orleans and family,
And we do not put you to rest with anything less than hearts leaden with grief
We dance at a second line funeral, but our steps do not mask our tears
We ask, as always, "Why?" and "How many more?", and are answered by silence
You are going home, and leaving New Orleans
Without you we are less of a people, and the gold fades with the sunset


Friday, February 5, 2016

Starman



David Bowie passed away early in this New Year.  When I first read the news, as I was zipping through FB headings and tidbits, at first I was in complete denial (Bullshit! A unbelievable mistake!). But as I continued to read about his ongoing battle with cancer, one that he and his family kept under tight wraps until the inevitable end, it struck like a punch in the gut.  Tears overwhelmed me. I fast-tracked through all the memories of this incredible man's music, and the years that it ran through my life like the best of soundtracks.  As a child, developing a huge crush as I watched him own the Goblin King role in Labyrinth; being completely hooked on the movie soundtrack for years afterwards; listening to the classics like "Golden Years" and "Fame" that were the bedrock of my musical upbringing; getting into the Ziggy Stardust phase in my early 20, fueled by a rocker boyfriend and the group of people I was hanging with at the time.  After my breakup, with the boy and the group, I spent hours at dive bars feeding coins in the juke, and listening to my "old friends".  I even got Mom into my phase, and she loved "Ziggy" as much as I did.   It was fun to think that I was teaching Mom about music from her generation.  It definitely had the power of crossing the lines and reaching everyone.  David Bowie's music was a living entity; I found consolation and hope in its companionship.  These songs reminded me that some things do last forever.
 
In more recent years, David Bowie has been my standby, his music on so many playlists.  He became a friend, family, more than just entertainment or background noise.  When he passed on from this life, it hurt so deeply that it felt as though all the memories in my life involving his music- childhood, the 20's, today- somehow departed right along with him. I grieved then, and am grieving now, for this enormous loss, not only in the music world but for everyone who played his songs and connected through his lyrics and the memories that walked hand in hand with his music.   It seems impossible to think he is really gone- he was one of those rare souls who aged with such grace, bigger than life, his music evolving, changing and always growing.  He was more than just a rock n roll icon; he was a builder of dreams. He brought us all together.  He had the confidence and guts to remain true to his individuality, regardless of how strange that looked at times.  He put his heart and soul into his songs, and was unafraid to express himself at the highest level. He will never be replaced and will never be forgotten. 
 
 
 
"There's a Starman waiting in the sky,
He'd like to come and meet us,
but he thinks he'd blow our minds..."
 
 
 

 

Saturday, January 2, 2016

2016


Another year in, and another one out.  Yes, its that time again, and unlike my usual "Year in Review" segment I'm going to just reflect on how peaceful the celebrations were this time around, and focus on moving forward.  Suffice it to say that this year was yet another roller coaster filled with drama, joy, illness, growth, disappointment, enlightenment and change.  Funny how that works. To paraphrase Joan Rivers, "I wish I could tell you it gets better but it doesn't.  You get better." Amen to that.  
 
New Year's Eve ended up being rung in very quietly and close to home. Plans fell through and my little man needed to be close to home and with his mommy while he recovered from post-op. In years past I would've felt keenly disappointed at the lack of excitement.  This year I ended up being happy to be removed from the drama, the overindulgence and loudness and cacophony (unless you count a toddler shrieking with joy, the shrill blast of fireworks and overindulging in appetizers and chocolate goodness). The celebration kicked off  at church- Munholland held its annual NYE labyrinth/meditation as a way of reflecting on hopes and dreams and putting the year to rest before symbolically walking into the new one.  It was a new experience for me and one I plan on repeating in years ahead. The rest of the evening was spent taking a drive through the park, enjoying a spread of food and helping ring in the New Year with family and neighbors. 
 
 
So now its a new year and a new beginning.  Or is it? The question that so many people struggle with is, "Why does the new year matter?" There are so many arguments and debates about whether or not it "really" makes any difference.  Well, I believe its like anything else- you can see the glass as half empty or half full.  Many of us need the symbolism of a fresh start to encourage us to make important changes and live life differently.  There has to be a starting point, a beginning. The "clean slate" is only in our heads, but you have to start somewhere.  In fact, the best change starts in your mind. If it makes folks happy to imagine a new chapter in this busy, complicated, confusing world, then let them believe in it.  I find that I believe in it and want to make things different this time around.



Wishing you many blessings in the New Year.  May 2016 be good to all of us!